The word is out; I’m writing a book, a series of books actually, called “Culture Rebel”. I’m thrilled and scared beyond belief at the same time. The idea behind Culture Rebel is deeply embedded within me through situations I’ve experienced over the past ten years.
I found myself in a dark place after experiencing a series of losses; loss of ministry position, loss of my father to cancer and then my grandmother three months later. Loss of a business I had birthed from the ground up. Loss of friendships I thought were loyal. Moving from a city I loved to a city I could only tolerate. Loss of all that was comfortable and known to me. Some of these I lost because life just brings loss; case closed. But much of what I lost was because I was stubborn and determined to succeed, to live on the edge, to dream and to live for my own ambition. I became known for being a rebel; but I was a rebel without His cause in my heart. I was building my kingdom.
Through the brokenness of my kingdom crashing down on me, I had no where else to look other than up at the One who I felt had abandoned me. To the One I thought was so disappointed in me that He left me out to dry; to get what I deserved. I had to face Him strait in the eye and ask for Him to take whatever was left of my pathetic life and somehow forgive it. He did more than that; He restored it. It took a long while for me to feel I was back on my feet, but after praying every day for one year for God to return my passion for Him back to my heart, He did; and it came back with a force willing to embrace His kingdom and forever surrender mine.
You see, deep with in me (and I believe all mankind), is a desire for significance. I wanted an edge to live on. The edge of ambition, approval addiction, and success only left me in the dust. The edge of becoming my own woman; building my business and dancing my nights away in the club only emptied my soul. I was on the wrong edge. I was a rebel without a cause.
If I’m going to be a rebel then I’m going to be a Culture Rebel: being rebellious to the negative messages culture preaches from all its mediums. To stand-off to the status quo; busting out of mediocrity, and doing a full-on sprint to the edge of a new ideal: His ideal. His dream for His kingdom to come on earth.
Are you ready to join me? On this blog, I will be telling more of my story and the stories of other Culture Rebels out there. If you’re one of them, send your story to me! culturerebelonline@gmail.com
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